Archive for December, 2020

Hard to discern among the birch trees

December 10, 2020

Hard to discern among the birch trees, (BLANK), and lily pads. (Birch trees or fir trees and their similar sounds.) Hard to discern among birch trees BLANK, lily pads. (Feel the reason I can’t recall it, the word that is represented by the blank, involved that you would not find this plant among lily pads necessarily).

Avalanche lilies are the next line: “avalanche lilies (or lily), Indian paintbrushes/ bear’s ears and kittentails.” (Bear’s ears and kittentails, not bears’ ears and kitten’s tails.) Indian paint brushes. (Spell check does not accept ‘lilly’ as there there is just one ‘l’ in it.)

Moss is further down but it, the word sought, is something very like moss: “birch tree, moss and lily pads.” Even having not heard the poem you’d expect moss not to be correct. But the word sought is monosyllabic or at least very short like moss. Hard to discern, hard to discern, what is hard to discern –the ponies are “hard to discern” — among the birch trees, among the thing I don’t know — and the lily pads. Chlorophylles fungi (occurs a bit farther down). (Spell check doesn’t accept Chlorophylles. Wikitionary only includes it as the French plural of chlorophylle.)

Felt I almost have it and feel I almost do have it — it’s there– here — in my face more than in my brain or mind — yet won’t fully emerge as knowledge, as memory, as a thing known, as a thing one might say. It’s one syllable (or two) — it’s a plant. — It’s not moss. I have to look it up. No / It is not going to come. Fir trees’/ shadows are mentioned twice in the poem.

And also, besides this, you forgot that whole stanza after “antelope”: the stanza, as it were, where it goes, “acclimated to grottoes, which issue penetrating draughts.” “Draughts” occurring also in the line with spotted ponies: “brought up on frosted grass and flowers and the(?) (the?) rapid draughts of ice water.” (Might have that wrong.)

Might or should make, maybe, concordance when I’ve done: spotted ponies have “glass eyes” and the glacier is made of “glass that bends.” Spots toward the end, opening is dots – “dots of cyclamen reds and maroons.” Another portion I didn’t even realize I’d forgot: “its ghostly pallor changing…” Fir trees and birch trees (to the “green metallic tinge.”) The fir trees are the ‘austere specimens’ and have their shadows ‘obliterated’; the larches are of ‘polite needles’ conformed to an edge’; and the birch trees the spotted ponies are hard to discern among.

Relative to this struggle of recall, the relief of the computer is thought of/ deplored — would someone look it up. (Computer’s existence seems to imply there’s no point at all to memorization, to memory. Twain: you don’t need to remember if you always tell the truth.) But with the computer I can say even quite roughly what I’m looking for and it will appear. Later, however, when I do check the internet, I’m surprised the search for “hard to discern among birch trees, water lilies” comes up with only nature sites. I have to add “Marianne Moore octopus” to the search bar to get the poem to come up. (Maybe memory, from the standpoint of computers, involves going beyond the first few search results, or the first few pages or hundreds of pages of search results, which represent short term memory or even perception, with memory of the kind implied by Marianne Moore or The Octopus requiring more a “refined search.” Maybe also the search of ones own memory can be “refined.”)

The word was ferns: “hard to discern among birch trees, ferns, lily pads, avalanche lilies, Indian paint brushes…” the e in fern with the i of birch, the maybe echoed in the avalanche and indian paint brushes. Indiam paint brushes (why do I say that). Am I more or less likely to recall ‘ferns’ in this spot having made this struggle to recall it? [no.] Is ‘fern’ for whatever reason to be one of these words I just can’t recall. [no.] Is it ever to be moss to me. Always moss, which doesn’t sound at all right– Nets, seines, guns, traps, Hired vehicles and gambling.

December 9, 2020

hm. the ‘d’ in advance was a mistake and should be a ‘b’: abvance. ‘Ahead‘ is originally nautical and stood in contrast with astern.

December 8, 2020

Il faut de plus grandes vertus pour soutenir la bonne fortune que la mauvaise.

We need greater virtues in good times than in bad.

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December 7, 2020

“To listen to someone is to put oneself in his place while he is speaking.”–Simone Weil (via –Interesting points made among the tweets)… I interpret this as saying that listening involves an act of imagination akin to role-playing or acting, actually pretending you’re the person forming these words you’re listening to. It seems like this sort of technique might be most useful when you already know what someone is saying but don’t know why they are saying it or telling you this. Not useful at all when you don’t know what they’re saying.

December 6, 2020

Episode: Summs has discovered a position which is almost guaranteed to put a person to sleep. (A person tries it, scoffs at its inefficacy, then rolls over on her back and sleeps for two days, an instant Summs convert.)

Episode: A friend of Summs comes to him with a spiritual problem bordering on the supernatural. He’s got a “little devil.” Can Summs do anything about a “little devil”?

(The friend thinks he’s so close to being “a good person” but he’s got this troublesome spirit in between him and really being good, a demon which seems not only to mock the whole thing and be very bad but also, at times, to be his true self — what did Summs think?)

December 5, 2020

“The takeaway is that when accessibility to birth control declines, the number of unplanned pregnancies increases,” said Mark Anderson, chairman of the Iowa Council on Human Services…. Number of Iowa abortions climb after plummeting for decades.

December 4, 2020

MILES DAVIS – Time After Time

December 3, 2020

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Strato-, Alto-, and Cirrocumulus

December 2, 2020

Stick out your arm and extend your index middle and ring fingers ( ||| not \ | / ). If the average individual cloud element is bigger than all three fingers, it’s stratocumulus, if it’s smaller than all three but bigger than one finger, it’s altocumulus, and if it’s smaller than one finger it’s cirrocumulus.*

Letting go of sock

December 1, 2020

It appears I woke up, took off one of my socks, and fell asleep before letting go of it. Had I removed the other one, the other sock? (No, I had only removed the one sock) Had I removed my pants? (No, I hadn’t removed my pants yet, I was still wearing pants in bed.) Well, what was your posture like? How to describe my posture — well my posture was just as if you had frozen a man solid while was he was standing upright while holding a paper to his side (because I had thought at first that it was not a sock, that it was a paper) — either frozen a man solid or just made a statue of a figure like that, then had laid that standing man or figure down on his back. That was approximately how I was situated, only not holding a paper, holding a sock — and with a blanket thrown over the “frozen man.” Just as the painters of certain periods, I further elaborate, (I couldn’t recall which painters at the time that I first made this comparison) would portray children as “little adults”, so was my prone sleeping posture merely a form of “horizontal standing”, was how I put it to myself at the time. (I then started making even less sense than this and I called my lying down “old standing” — unable, though, to decide whether it was really old or young standing, or really really young standing, as in infantile.)

I hadn’t yet removed my pants. I had yet to remove my right sock. Had I fallen asleep having removed the sock? Did the sock really feel like a sheet of paper? (– it didn’t, not any longer.) The blanket over the hand that held the sock but not over the foot from which the sock had not been removed — over the foot that still had its sock…. Legs, still in trousers under blankets getting hot…. Words from different languages occurring to me…. Voices saying, get a drink, use the bathroom, get up! Voices saying: need to remove pants. Need to let go of sock. Let go of sock! Need to let go of sock! in different languages, probably not real languages. Thinking ideas not generally put into languages, such as “I am standing: but my feet are my body and I am my ankle” before drifting off again, letting go of sock.